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October 06

There are so many things I've written, that you have never read

Like the things you think you've heard but I actually never said

The expectations we had for each other have faded like cheap dye

The "I love you's" we whispered are now just a small white lie

I conceed to making this decision, that's seemingly caused this pain

But you'd pulled out before the choice arose, so i guess he stood to gain

I hope that you are happy with whoever you say she is

And i hope that you'r flying steady and not on broken wings

This decision wasn't easy, but you know I had to try

Deep down you'll never forgive me for the seven years i let slip by

Straight and Narrow isn't easy, espically for the uncertanity that is me

But you will always be the music when it hits a climax and the other half of "we"

I'm foxed that he still lingers and lets the indiscretions slide

He knows there will never be full disclosure and there are secrets I'll always hide

You were the wild card in the story, the two day affair encased in shame

Though i can never speak of you, I unconsciously smile when I say your name

So, the guilt will constantly ride me as i wrestle with the consequences that arise

And you... you will be the pulsating music, purring fast car and perfect beach moment

that will forever haunt me as i stand between desire and compromise.

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Veena wrote:

Hey! it's beautiful and seems to originate from true, genuine feelings..... Good work Barker..

BTW I have written about you.. Actually more like quoted you.. Check out my blog.. The entry is called Parent's love..

N hey btw stay in touch.. Send me a number I can call you on...

Miss ya

Oct. 10

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